Today..i have a hard day.1st time,i cried in school.I mean in class where all my classmates is ther.I guess probably 1hours..
I failed my coursework,my test.OMG~actually besides the test..i got another circumtances actually.My friends,my family and my own personal problems.I dint attend for Accounting lecturer.I just attend for the tutorial.B4 tat,i was unhappy already.When i took my paper my tears...dropz...
I knew i shouldnt be and i have to be TOUGH~ i miss my mum..Today too,i called my mum and she cried and this makes me feel more terrible.Few days ago..i got FAU Nite which can say my last activity for this society[if they ask me to become OC's once again next year,maybe i still involve in FAU,but if not..its the end after today's feedback meeting.I luvs FAU so much.I really have FRIENDS here and did something that i likes.But,unfourtunately,fate doesnt allow me to have this soceity as part of my life..Maybe its also aadvantages coz maybe i can concentrate more on my studies or maybe on my friends in classs.....I pour so much effort on it but the result is i got nothing~
Im sad..im unhappy..i really do~all these problems no 1 knows and i also dont wish to share so much which people probably wont belives me or thought i was acting or whatever coz people here is tough to mix with or maybe our thinking is far more different?
Besides that,my family..especially my beloved mommy,she's old now and she's far more TOUGHER than me..y i say that?coz she's now lonelier than me ALOT.I knew she loves me..u know till now,sometimes she called me or i called her...she will cried.Not because she miss me too much its because i knew she got her own problems which she ALWAYS share with me last previous time.We cant talk alot through phone.My brother doesnt talk alot with my mum and my dad is always busy with his works and every noon and nite,sure he go social with his friends...
The last thing is my own personal problems...I like a guy..most probably..maybe i have something towards him...i dont know...i dont know what should i do.I still able to control myself coz im not so so into him..but the thing is,im so disspaointed coz i feel that he is avoiding me or maybe he just treat me as a normal friend..or maybe i dont know...its hard to explain...i dont wanna think about it too and dont wish to mention again coz i see this guy everytime during class....his 1 of my classmates.. -_-" omg~i mention it out..But,how ever..this is not the main reason im not h-a-p-p-y...i just wanna 'Bla' it all out..
Lastly..i wanan briefly mention about something i did last week.Friday,went to buy hip hop cloth purposely for the FAU Nite...then saturday we need to reach school at 7am till next day 1am then we back home...purposely for the FAU NITE....sleep at 3am..
Was really very very tired....

HOnestly...i really wish to go back home now~if can..and i know i should be tough and i shouldnt take FAU thingy so much already..but i dont noe..all these problems keep on appearing on my mind.I really wish to talk to someone maybe..i dont knoe.....i guess,i have to work it out...all by myself